Today

I wish I could lay it all down.

I wish I could just fit in.

I wish people wouldn’t say I try too hard. That’s the point isn’t it? To try your hardest?

I mean you can’t win.

You either don’t try enough. Or you try too hard.

What’s with the world?

What’s with the people in the world?

I just don’t feel like I’m enough.

I’ve got a million, million voices in my head telling me I am worthless.  I don’t need you to tell me that too. I don’t need you to point out my flaws because I do that already. 

I don’t understand. I mean, if they don’t like me, if they think I either try too hard or try too less, if they all think the same as I do about myself, then that’s it.

It’s the truth then isn’t it. If they say the same thing I say about myself, then it’s true.

I’m at a point of, being done.

There’s got to be a time when I am able to just …not think. Just to be able to sit and be at peace with myself.

There’s got to be.

 

 

“How Can It Be”

I am guilty
Ashamed of what I’ve done, what I’ve become
These hands are dirty
I dare not lift them up to the Holy One

You plead my cause, you right my wrongs
You break my chains, you overcome
You gave your life, to give me mine
You say that I am free
How can it be? Yeah
How can it be? Yeah

I’ve been hiding
Afraid I’ve let you down
[Album version:] Inside I doubt, that you still love me
[Video version:] Inside I doubt, that you could love me
But in your eyes, there’s only grace now

You plead my cause, you right my wrongs
You break my chains, you overcome
You gave your life, to give me mine
You say that I am free
How can it be? Yeah
How can it be? Yeah

Though I fall, you can make me new
From this death, I will rise with you
Oh, the grace reaching out for me, yeah
How can it be, how can it be?

You plead my cause, you right my wrongs
You break my chains, you overcome
You gave your life, to give me mine
You say that I am free, yeah

You plead my cause, you right my wrongs
You break my chains, you overcome
You gave your life, to give me mine
You say that I am free
How can it be? Yeah
How can it be? Yeah

“How Can It Be” – Lauren Daigle